i just detest the times when i know everything is going so super well and i ruin it in just three seconds.
M needs to learn to be more aware of her surroundings. M needs to consider the feelings of others. M needs to be more mature. M, it's time to grow up.
Sunday, March 29, 2009 @ 10:26 PM
100 Truths.
1. Last beverage→ Water. 2. Last phone call→ Sandra<3 3. Last text message→ Justin<3 4. Last song you listened to→ Take my Hand - Simple Plan. 5. Last time you cried→ Hmm... over a broken heart.
SIX HAVE YOU EVER: 1. Dated someone twice→ Yeah. 2. Been cheated on?→ HAHA. let's hope not ;X 3. Kissed someone & regretted it?→ Nope. 4. Lost someone special?→ Yes! & i got him back :D 5. Been depressed?→ Of course, over stupid little things. 6. Been drunk and threw up?→ Drunk yes, but i just slept.
LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS: 1. Orange 2. Blue 3. Black 4. Red
HAVE YOU: 1. Made new friends → Yup, definitely. 2. Fallen out of love → HAHA OF COURSE. 3. Laughed until you cried → HAHAHA YES. 4. Met someone who changed you → Everyone i meet changes me :] 5. Found out who your true friends were → Yeah. 6. Found out someone was talking about you → HAHA YEAH. some of the comments were funny and nice, some were mean, but that's life right? 7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ HAHA. YES. it was a dare O: 8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → All! wait, online friends, then i know 99.9%. 9. How many kids do you want to have→ Seven!
10. Do you have any pets → Yup, two terrapines (one ran away) Coffee and Eva. & one dog, Rustie. 11. Do you want to change your name→ HAHAHAHA. i love the way it is. But i think middle/second names are cool :D 12. What did you do for your last birthday→ Erm. i think i went out with Mom. Didn't really celebrate though ;X 13. What time did you wake up today → Eight twenty, when i should have been up at seven ): 14. What were you doing at midnight last night→ I fell asleep, then woke up at two. 15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → Sneaking out with my lover at one in the morning! :D :D :D HAHAHAHAHAHA. 16. Last time you saw your father→ Yesterday. 17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → Stop being negative and stupid. 18. What are you listening to right now → The fan blowing, my sisters and mom's voice outside. 19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → HAHA. no. 23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → The craving to meet my loverrrr :D HAHAHAHA. 24. Most visited webpage -> www.hotmail.com
About You 1. What's your name→ Marissa 2. Nicknames→ I have to ask Ruthie, cos i can't remember all. Call me M, Mer, mermer, Mari, Mersa, sa, mary, yeo, yeoleping, Mar, Marzahhh, MAReeZAH and so many more that i probably don't even know of -.-" 3. Age → Fourteen. 4. Zodiac sign → Taurus 5. Male or female or trans gender → Female 6. Elementary → SCGS 7. Middle School → SCGS 8. High school → TKGS! 10. Hair color → Copper brown in the middle and black at some parts (according to Natalie and Serene) I didn't dye my hair (: 11. Long or short → Awesomely short now :] 16. Height → i shrunk .___." 156. i need 160. 17. Do you have a crush on someone? → HAHAHA YES. 18: What do you like about yourself? → Nothing really. 19. Piercings → 2 on each year, so that's four. 20. Tattoos → None, had one in primary school though, those washable ones. heh. 21. Righty or lefty → Both? i write with both for fun :D
FIRSTS : 22. First surgery → None, and i never want one. 23. First piercing → Ears. 24. First best friends --> Some girl from N1. 26. First sport you joined → Gymnastics. 27. First pet → Rustie, my dog :D 28. First vacation→ Hong Kong when my Mom and Dad were together. 29. First concert → Angela Chang, which was a disappointment -.-" 30. First crush → Hahah, in Primary Twoi think? O: HAHAHA we're friends now though ;X 49. Eating → Powdered milk. 50. Drinking → Air. 52. I'm about to → Reply an IM from Ruthie, then do my homework. 53. Listening to → The fan blowing. 55. Waiting for → an sms.
YOUR FUTURE : 58. Want kids?/More kids? - Yes, I want kids. I want seven :D 59. Want to get married? - HAHAHA YES PLEASE. i want to get married earlyyyy. 60. Careers in mind? - Airplane Engineer or Journalist for ST, or maybe NYT.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? 68. Lips or eyes → Eyes. 69. Hugs or kisses → Hugs. 70. Shorter or taller → Taller. 71. Older or Younger → Older. 72. Romantic or spontaneous → S. 73. Nice stomach or nice arms → Nice stomach. Hey, don't give me that look, abs are way cool! :D 74. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive. 75. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship. 77. Trouble maker or hesitant → Hesitant is better, i don't want to get into trouble when i'm on a date O:
HAVE YOU EVER : 78. Kissed a stranger → No. 79. Drank hard liquor → Nope. 80. Lost glasses/contacts → Yes. 81. Sex on first date → HAHAHA NO. 82. Broken someone's heart → I hope not ): 83. Had your own heart broken → Definitely, million times over. 85. Been arrested → Never want to. 86. Turned someone down → Yeah ): 87. Cried when someone died → Yeah, a lot. Thank you Justin for being there for me :) 88. Liked a friend that is a guy? → Yes. 90. Miracles → i'm hoping for one. 91. Love at first sight → Not really. 92. Heaven → When God feels i've done my time. 93. Santa Clause → My parents. 95. Kiss on the first date? HAHA NO. 96. Angels → on my Christmas tree.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - YES! 98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? - Baby, i don't cheat. I'll be loyal to you forever and ever. 99. Get pissed and cried your heart out? - Yes, it's not pretty. 100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Yeah, i guess.
What luck, i'm suppose to do Amath now. M, get your scrawny ass off NOW.
@ 10:09 PM
STRIVE RUTHIE, STRIVE :D
Tan Lee Ee Ruthie is the one of the people i love most in the world. She's perhaps the most annoying, noisy, talkative, high, childish, caring, friendly girlfriend i've ever had. CONGRATULATIONS RUTHIEEEEEE :D You are now CHAIRMAN of RCY :D i am the most freakin' proud of you.
Darling, i know you are scared. i would be too. But i know you can do it :) Your Ma'ams know that you can do it, that's why they chose you.
Babe, believe in yourself. You've worked so hard, prove to the world that can be the best chairman :D cos i know you can.
I have faith in you. Have faith in yourself ;] Cos no matter what, RCY and all your gans will be behind you, cos we all love you.
@ 9:50 PM
Hai Sing Carnival :D
With Car and Joanne :D :D :D
The dance was awesome :D
Car and Joanne's friend, Luke :D heeee. He's suppose to wear the bikini too! O:
JonSiow and Luke. Heeee. They are really nice people :)
Thank you for bringing us around :D HAHAHAHA.
Lastly, gratitude to JOANNE for the photos! sorry, the ones on mine were pretty bad O:
Saturday, March 28, 2009 @ 11:15 PM
FIGHT, DONNA, FIGHT.
Donna, you've been one of the inspirations of my life, and i love you a lot for that :)
Times have been tough, but the Donna i know is a fighter, not a quitter. She can always pull through, no matter what.
i know you've worked hard, but no rewards were given for your efforts, but it's sad to say, life is like that sometimes.
God's not out there to put you down, he's out there to challenge you. He's putting you through a dark valley, where hope seems bleak.
But you are not alone, he has blessed you with friends who care as your light. They'll stick by you, hold your hand, and walk you through this.
Babe, we are reaching out. You have to trust us, grab hold. We know you can do it, we have faith in you, we believe in you.
Donna, trust yourself. Tell yourself you can do it. Depression will not brighten your day. Optimism will.
I promised i'll stick by you. We'll study hard to achieve our goals. Single digits, PB EXCO. We can do it DONNA CHUA JIALE :D
Cheer up Donna. There's always a rainbow after a storm. You'll make it through the dark valley. Yes you will.
DONNA, FIGHT. cos no matter what, 3e5 and PB will always fight alongside you.
@ 10:48 PM
i think i am fat.
Call me aneroxic, call me insane, i don't care anymore.
twenty-four inches, & forty kilograms is cool. which girl doesn't want to be slim? Who doesn't want to be a Size 4? Who can proudly say, "I AM A FAT ASS AND IM LOVING IT!"
if you are, i admire you. but it's a pity really, i don't have that big a ego as you, neither do i want to have a fat butt.
ZP said i looked fat. L says i'm fat 24/7. H said i put on weight. M says i put on weight, and i'm fat.
see, so it's not only me. if two meals a day won't let me shed some pounds, it's time to activate one meal a day diet. (since Mom force feeds me at home)
oh wells, M, you can do it. Yes you can.
@ 10:42 PM
Hai Sing Carnival today :D :D :D
went with Car after tuition :) & made tons of new friends :D
Car's friends were nice. They brought us around :) YAY.
i found Wei Zhu :D HE GREWWWWW! so unfair. how's that Ruthie and Wei Zhu grow and i don't. -.-" heee. he treated me tickets :) YAY. THANK YOU :D & help me cheat in his class' game :] HAHAHA SO I WON A CD FOR SANDRA :D YAYYYY!
Photos another day, cos my cam screwed D: D: D: so i'm waiting for Joanne to post them :) alrighty. WHEEEE :D
Today was awesomeeee. heheho!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009 @ 11:44 PM
run baby run.
Justin and I are ON HIATUS again :D hahahahahahaha. catch us if you can :)
wheeeeeeeeeeeee. APPLEDIETS!APPLEDIETS!APPLEDIETS!APPLEDIETS! M is definitely HIGH ON HEROIN. Height and Weight just screwed me today, offcially on strict 1000 calorie diet.
ohgosh, save herrrr O:<
@ 11:11 PM
Come to think of it, everyone's leaving.
out of reach.
Mel left last last year. Lee left on New Year's. Anusha left yesterday. Nasri is leaving in June/July. & i'm drifting away into my own little realm, away from reality.
i'm missing all of you. i'm hoping to see you guys sooner or later when we've all grown up and changed, i guess that's the best surprise ever yet. i want to come back to the real world, and lead the life as someone everyone probably forgot.
baby, i just can't get you out of my mind. why oh why oh why.
@ 10:53 PM
Farewell Anusha D: D: D:
Anusha left yesterday. i wanted to send her off, but i had school ): i miss her. i love her. (:
may Germany be a better place for you and your family, i'm sure you'll make many new friends and touch everyone's hearts, just like you've touched mine.
Thank you babe. Come back soon :D
Sunday, March 22, 2009 @ 9:56 PM
School tomorrowwwww :D :D :D
we're going to soar and fly, just the two of us.
YAY. HOLIDAYS ARE OVER. back to school (: i miss my classmates, schoolmates, best friends and girlfriend. seeing them tomorrow! :D :D :D oh wait, perhaps i miss my teachers too O:
HAHAHAHA. I MISSED BUSY SCHOOL LIFE D: and i hate being stuck at home doing Math all day. bores me to tears.
YAY. SCHOOL TOMORROWWWW :) I'M HYPED :D
Saturday, March 21, 2009 @ 6:10 PM
You give me wings when i'm falling.
This song is for JUSTINMOFUZE, TANLEEEERUTHIE, CARISSAALEXAHWANGWENYA and DONNACHUAJIALE. Thank you for being my heroes/heroines :) i love you truckloads<3
Sometimes it’s hard just to be yourself I know you know So close to tears wanting to give up I felt all alone.....
But now you’re here right by my side And I just want you to know
You give me wings when I’m falling You lift me up when I’m down Taking me high touching the sky Yeah,you make me fly...
Now I am stronger than I was before Because of you I feel so alive and I’m wanting more I can’t believe it's true and now you're here,right by my side Don’t ever let me go.....
You give me wings when I’m falling You lift me up when I’m down Taking me high touching the sky yeah,you make me fly...
Ooo baby, woah wooah Come fly away with me.....
You give me wings when I’m falling That’s why I’m saying to you Whoa...
You give me wings when I’m falling When I'm falling You lift me up when I’m down When I'm down Taking me high taking me high Touching the sky touching the sky yeah,you make me You make me fly.....
You give me wings when I'm falling Whooa yeah You lift me up when I'm down When I'm down Taking me high Taking me high Touching the sky Touching the sky yeah,you make me You make me fly.....
you give me wings
it's love all around, thank you for always being there.
Friday, March 20, 2009 @ 10:37 PM
when the red light shines, it means stop. when i see you, my heart stops.
It's homework marathon. i have like 100 plus questions in total for math, A and E. What luck.
Justin's helping me keep awake, cos i'm practically nodding off after every question O: HAHA. i just heard my phone buzz, must be my wake up call.
YAY. THANK YOU JUSTIN :D wheeeeeeeeeee.
@ 10:25 PM
Cheerleadingggggg! Everyone said we did well. i think i screwed up, but everyone else was super terrific greatness :D i love 3e9<3
Our routine :D
With Insyirah, Yaisyah, Dee, Muslihah and Shi Yun :D :D
Rehearsals :D
Insyirah, Lili and Isyah. ;D
Deepest gratitude to Marissa Tang for the awesome photos and being our fantastic cheerleading coach :D :D :D YAY MARISSA ;D
@ 12:11 AM
if we won champs again, i'll be the happiest person on earth.
Cheerleading tomorrow in 9 hours.
i'm freaking out. Just finished mixing the song :D Reporting at school at 7.30am tomorrow. I am excited and afraid. I want to win. 3e9 wants to win.
WE CAN DO IT!IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE! :D
no one triumphs 3e9. i repeat, NO ONE.
go Lili, Insyirah, Dee, Aqida and Isyah!go go go! we can do it :D
i am a happy girl. it's a deal baby :)
Tuesday, March 17, 2009 @ 10:51 PM
This was inspired by my awesome pretty friend Portia Tan Jie Jing :D as well as the movie The Bucket List.
My Bucket List:
1. Say hi to someone i don't know on the street. 2. Save up for a Nikon D60/90. 3. Save up for a personalised MacBook. 4. Stay out late till 1 the next morning. 5. Photography night shoot. 6. Learn how to do self-defense properly. (cos apparently taekwondo lessons haven't worked) 7. Play soccer well. 8. SPH Scholarship. 9. 6 points for O levels. 10. Register for NS. 11. Lose at least 2kg. 12. Grow at least 3cm. 13. Sleep more. 14. Get into PB EXCO. 15. Write better Bylines for IN & Grapevine. 16. Be a miracle to the world.
& the list will keep going on, till a perish from the world as a person worth remembering. Marissa, be that miracle.
@ 7:07 PM
i'll do it all again for you.
Cheerleading today :D i had loads fun. We are finally done! ;D just need to practise, practise, and more practise!
our routine is gonna be epic, and i hope we are gonna win :D 3e9 go go go! Lili, Insyirah, Dee, Yaisyah and Aqida! we can do it. IMPOSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE!
After practice, went to meet Justin and his friend Nigel. Passed some stuff to him. Then went back home.
Here's the best part, went back out to meet him again, on the way met Dylan. then met Justin and Nigel and hitched a ride to East Coast, then walked back O: (i'm retarded, i go to the beach alone -.-")
While walking back, met Brendan, Nelson and Aziz. They cycled all the way down from Pasir Ris. SO COOL :D
HAHAHA. TODAY IS LIKE MEETING PEOPLE DAYYY ! :D i've met so many people,and that really made my day :) Thank you everyone, especially you, J.
Monday, March 16, 2009 @ 11:38 AM
i'm empty but you fill me.
i can feel you touch, your smell and your taste on my skin. and no matter how many times i've washed it, it's still there. i made my mistakes, but now it's too late to turn back time, and tell you "I love you too, J."
@ 10:15 AM
INCROWD BBQ where all the fun is :D
Met Bhavana at two after going to my cousin's house :D we went to get food at Tiong Bahru Plaza before meeting Nasri at IKEA. i loveeee IKEA :D
bought these cute little toys for prizes :D i just love them. Donna gave me one before, so i'm giving one more to her ;D
Went to pick everyone up. heheho. the BBQ was like really slow O: so we ate a bit, then gave up cooking ;X but i was already really really full O:
BBQ.
Burn. Burn. Burn!
HAHA. i don't know which one to be amused about, Nasri's priceless expression, or how nice the prata made Bhavana's mom was.
Spastic bitch.
The people that rock the night.
My face is compressed between two awesome faces.
After BBQ, Nasri, Portia and I went cam-whoring. HAHAHAHA. OMG. CAMWHORING BITCHES.
We'll prove you wrong.
Portia got cut off O:
We'll laugh and smile our way through life.
Nasri is like the craziest comedian everrrr :B
We'll keep playing our game,
till we sing ourselves to sleep.
Nasri has his IC alreadyyyy O:
xoxo, best friends.
NASRI AGAIN.
This photo spells L-O-V-E. i miss Portia Tan Jiejing and Nasri Sadi.
Pool jumping came next. Almost got scolded. But the guards here are extra niceeeee :D
Bhavana :D
With Jia Wei and Si Ying :D
It's like night poses at parties.
WHEEEEEEE.
i think Ruthie feels honoured to see her surname there on my shirt :D
We'll be great friends.
heheho. it's like fully clothed swimsuit babes and hunks by the pool.
1, 2, 3 JUMPPPPPP :D :D
OMG. The aftermath of jumping into the pool :]
CHEESE :D
That spells U-N-G-L-A-M.
We'll scream and shout till the whole world knows we're the happiest kids on earth. The best photo eveer :D
M: Jia Wei, why haven't you jumped? O:
Prepare to jump.
SPLASH! :D
Happy Retards.
Nasri's "Angelina Jolie style" of getting out of the pool :D
We crapped in the water till 10.45. Even tried a few cheerleading moves. heh. and i think everyone got the kick of teasing me and Josh. like WTP, he didn't even come luhhhh O:
(wanted to tell Nasri a secret, so walked away from the rest for a while) (Jia Wei follows) Bhavana: Eh. Jia Wei, don't spoil there moment. Si Ying: Huh? Then what about Josh? Bhavana: HAHA. do't worry about it, cos the love between Josh and Marissa will always be true.
WTP. i swear i will kill all of you :D HAHAHAHA. it's been like that since last year's crowd. One thing i'm damn sure of, JOSH IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND. We are just awesome buddies.
i can hear buzzing all around now. HAHA ROFL. i can die laughing at all this crap.
Anyhow, i love INCROWD0809<3 cos we just rock.
Tainted.
M.
I'm diehard for thriller rides and spasm that sprouts up to level infinite.
I'm madly in love with M, the sunshine of my soul.
I'm highly addicted to writing, sports, photography and design.
I'm a killer-machine, so please don't mess with me.