Stronger by the minute, weaker by the second.


thanks for getting me hooked onto running.
cos now, i can't stop.


Shopping sprees with Mom on Saturday.
I think it was fruitful cos i did buy a lot of stuff :)
Phew, shopping is so not my forte,
but i finally got my NUM Tanks ;D
HAPPY HAPPY, THANKS MOM <3


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I had one of the most bizzare nights.
I think i was too high to even feel pain or anger.

Yes, thanks for telling me, but whether i choose to believe it solely lies in my own heart and mind. I appreciate your honesty, but sometimes, i keep wondering how many more lies you would need to tell me till it reaches the truth.
I sense that you have built a fortress of lies to surround me, to probably either protect me, or protect yourself from the horrid truth. I wouldn't know, cos i'm not you.

Although i do always wonder why you told me.
Did the truth keep you up at night?
Or was it your guilty conscious?
Or were you on a mission to bring me down further?
These questions, i'm going to leave them unanswered, just the way it is,
let the decision to tell me be your choice, your right.

To ask me to hate you is probably too much, even though you would want me to.
Like i said, i don't hate people forever. Yeah sure, maybe i did hate you for a minute of my life, but i can't hate forever, no one can. Even if it was you that tore me up way down inside.

I'm not strong, but i'm not that weak either.
So the fact that you've got me so messed up,
well, congrats to you, honestly.
If your goal was to smash me inside, you have achieved it, good for you.
To think i have trusted you, i probably detest myself for that more than i detest what you have done to me. Like you said, you haven't changed. Not one bit.
I can't help but agree.

Whatever it is, i won't stop whatever you do.
Cos it's your life, not mine.
You know who you are, and what you did.
I'm speechless to say anything else to you,
but one thing i'm sure, i am numb, i feel nothing, (for now)
but you still win and i lose, cos you always win.

Good luck, if you want to screw other people's lives up,
cos i'm pretty sure you are done screwing mine.
Your acting skills are an eight, maybe eight half.
Period.

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That was something that was trapped inside me after doing one whole day of thinking.
I appreciate the cheering up from Bryan Han, Lex and Nigel when my mental resilience began to waver a little today.
I'm better now, and i'm stronger.
I'm not going to back down.
Anyhow, will appreciate if i'm not pounded with questions about this,
that's all, thank you everyone :)





so perhaps that was what was keeping you up all night.